I've been revising some Clarion stories, going over my Clarion buddies' critiques, remembering all the things we all talked about every day, day after day, and I've polished up a couple of pretty good stories. "What's wrong with that?", I hear you say. Well, I've become fairly strongly afraid that I'll never be able to polish up a good story again without my Clarion buddies. That I didn't actually internalize or learn a damn thing, that I'm incapable of the kind of perspective and professionalism that will allow me to spot the deficiencies and rough spots in my own stories.
I guess I just have to ignore that fear.